There is no other writer like him MAGGIE NELSON. I steal language and ideas from Michael Clune BEN LERNER. A strange and brilliant teenagers first panic attacks lead him down the rabbit hole in this wild, highly anticipated debut novel from one of our most distinctive literary minds. Nicholas is fifteen when he forgets how to breathe. He has plenty of reasons to feel unstable already: hes been living with his dad in the bleak Chicago suburbs since his Russian-born mum kicked him out. Then one day in geometry class, Nicholas suddenly realises that his hands are objects. The doctor says its just panic, but Nicholas suspects that his real problem might not be a psychiatric one: maybe the Greek god Pan is trapped inside his body.As his paradigm for his own consciousness crumbles, Nicholas, his best friend, Ty, and his maybe-girlfriend, Sarah, hunt for answers why in Oscar Wilde and in Charles Baudelaire, in rock n roll and in Bach, and in the mysterious, drugged-out barn where their classmate Tods charismatic older brother Ian leads the high schoolers in rituals that might end up breaking more than just the law.Thrilling, cerebral and startlingly funny, Pan is a new masterpiece of the coming-of-age genre by Guggenheim fellow and literary scholar Michael Clune, whose memoir of heroin addiction, White Out named one of the New Yorkers best books of the year earned him a cult readership. Now, in Pan, the great novel of our age of anxiety, Clune drops us inside the human psyche, where we risk discovering that the forces controlling our inner lives could be more alien than we want to let ourselves believe.
